I took these shots in December, thinking I was going to write something about restarting for the New Year. That’s not really what I want to write about at all. I want to talk about winning.
The New Year always presents societal pressures to have your entire existence figured out by end of day one. What a daunting task. And yet, if we do not plan, we inevitably plan to fail. So I took a step in the direction of what some people believe will lead to success.
How many times have you sat down to complete a task and ended up watching television instead? The next thing you knew, your entire day is gone and you haven’t gotten any work done. Just me?
Exactly one year ago, I quit my job at a law firm without a plan. All I knew was that I wanted a more fulfilling life. I was excited to start a new chapter in my life although I had no idea what that life would resemble. Right now at this very moment, all I can say is THANK YOU to the Most High for giving me strength. It was a challenging year and I am better for it.
“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.” ― Steve Maraboli
2014 has been a challenging and painful year for a lot of people, myself included. Sometimes, the burdens and responsibilities of life can feel like it’s too much to bear. Whether you’ve been experiencing emotional pain or heartbreak, it’s time to remember that forgiving yourself is of utmost importance. Now, I’m no professional but I know a thing or two about how to heal after hurtful situations. The power to forgive is within us and for us. If forgiveness is something that you struggle with, here’s a practical guide to forgiving yourself.
The lights grew dim as wristbands began to illuminate the arena. A voice low, yet robust filled the atmosphere. Women excitedly cheered on as they recognized the familiar voice speaking. I could barely hear what she was reciting over the roaring applause. And then, like a vision of a burning sun, she rose from within the stage. We all lost our minds! It took me a second to realize that I was watching Oprah Gail Winfrey walk on the stage. Tears began to well in my eyes as it hit me: I was seeing Oprah in the flesh.
“Prayers are prophesies. They are the best predictors of your spiritual future. Who you become is determined by how you pray. Ultimately, the transcript of your prayers becomes the script of your life.” The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson
In 2005, I was 20 years old. I moved off campus and into my own apartment – all 602 square feet of it. I had no living room set, no cable, but it was my cozy home. As the frigid months approached, I realized that I was in way over my head. At the time, I was working part-time at a daycare making $7.25 an hour. I was a full-time college student. I had $1000 a month in bills to pay. I fell into a deep depression that year. Routinely, I would have a pastor friend of mine wake up at 6am and pray for me before I went in to work. Looking back, I know that it was only God that got me through that year.
The journey is favorably underway. Here I am, 31 days since the start of my internship with Caren West PR and whoa, have I learned a great deal so far. From day one, I was literally thrown in sans life vest into the vastness of PR life. I’m not sure who told us that PR was all parties and beer but it is not. At least not everyday. Public relations is the business of people. We are the managers. We are damage control. We are the informants. In this role, we help businesses shine. And from reading my blog, you’re already aware that helping people shine their light is what I love.
About three months ago, I stopped talking to someone very dear to me. When evening came and I attempted to sleep, my heart began to race. You know, like I just ran a marathon or was about to be approached by zombies. Of course neither of those situations were the case.
It hit me: I just stopped talking to the only person I’ve remained in constant contact with.
Over the weekend, love permeated through my social media accounts. Graduations, babies, weddings, family gatherings – all of the things that make the heart smile. I felt the love and happiness through my computer screen.
I’ve had the pleasure of spending quality time with my not so little cousin Marcha these past two months in Atlanta. This girl is something else. She loves her family, loves herself and laughs a lot. She’s inquisitive and isn’t afraid to go after what she wants. She has funny sayings like “tough business” and “yaaassss GaGa”. She is intelligent and pretty much amazing. For this short period of time, her presence really made me happy.